Wednesday, December 21, 2011

ze double packed box

I was thinking of this book I once got for Christmas from our neighbours, the Christmas Box. It used to be one of my favourites then. Slow and cold, and seemingly light till the story picks up pace. It seemed relaxed for the holidays but I never seem to ever remember the story's twist really when I decide to tell someone about it.

My Christmas box. I think it is the most interested I have ever been in anything even vaguely related to Christmas. The random thought inception when I was first browsing in a shop running an errand for mum, thereafter mentally rethinking the various facets and finally going back to the shop the next day to finally make my pick. But before that, this night shall be spent making a Christmas card to add to the personal touch.

Th next day at the shop, picking out the right one from all the ones that are exactly the same is quite a task in itself. Looking for flaws, colour combinations, and simply keeping in mind the possible thoughts of the recipient, quite a mind-balancing task I would say. Even picking the gift wrap should be symbolic of something.

I'm all ready to go to the post office and then I catch a glimpse of this card with a very nice envelope. Then I realise that the rest of the card my be used to decorate the envelope. I must say, I desperately miss my stationary collection. But the icing on the cake is the next greeting card I find to cut up!

All in all, I hope it was worth the 1 and a half hour wait in that long line at the post office. ;)

On another note, yet another kid from my colony is getting married. I remember playing with these guys in the evenings in the 5th and 6th standard. Cycling in the compound, playing this game called 'Arty-Party' (till now I still don' know why that game was called that). Oh, while we are on this topic, when I was a kid I made a new game and called it snakes! Something to do with a box with many lines and a person who was supposed to catch everyone within the outer box area while only moving along the lines. Here I shall take the liberty to say, in my opinion, I have always been very innovative especially when it comes down to new products for an even active market.

Anyhow, as I was saying, 2 kids in my colony are getting married, and I think they both barely graduated when I was in 2nd year. Now I am in 4th year, guess I'll get married when other people who are now in 1st reach their 4th year! :S

Tomorrow onward, my online time shall be very scarce, I absolutely dislike Goa.






love n luck

Friday, October 21, 2011

ze apparent winner! :S

I don't wanna talk
About the things we've gone through
Though it's hurting me
Now it's history
I've played all my cards
And that's what you've done too
Nothing more to say
No more ace to play

The winner takes it all
The loser's standing small
Beside the victory
That's a destiny

I was in your arms
Thinking I belonged there
I figured it made sense
Building me a fence
Building me a home
Thinking I'd be strong there
But I was a fool
Playing by the rules

The gods may throw a dice
Their minds as cold as ice
And someone way down here
Loses someone dear
The winner takes it all
The loser has to fall
It's simple and it's plain
Why should I complain.

But tell me does she kiss
Like I used to kiss you?
Does it feel the same
When she calls your name?
Somewhere deep inside
You must know I miss you
But what can I say
Rules must be obeyed

The judges will decide
The likes of me abide
Spectators of the show
Always stay in love
The game is on again
A lover or a friend
A big thing or a small
The winner takes it all

I don't wanna talk
If it makes you feel sad
And I understand
You've come to shake my hand
I apologize
If it makes you feel bad
Seeing me so tense
No self-confidence
But you see
The winner takes it all
The winner takes it all...







love n luck

Monday, October 17, 2011

ze yellow

and now no one will know,
when I put in a row...
Madhuri Dixit,
Kangana Ranaut,
Sridevi!
ssssssssssshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
;)








love n luck

these times may be the first, but they're never the last!

Thursday, October 13, 2011

ze 7th

The thing about fourth year is...








There is always something to talk about! And no gossip can beat this!





Love n luck

Sunday, October 9, 2011

ze decipher

Sometimes I forget how beautiful u are!







love n luck

Saturday, October 8, 2011

ze if only



its jus a smiley...
thats all it wil ever be
jus a smiley







i soooooooooooooooooooooooo badly need a friend
its sad


















love n luck

Ps. for d record, the episode is called 'The Perfect Couple'

ze catastrophe

As usual, I never reach Bangalore as early as I would like to be there. It just seems so impossible that I dunno how everyone else seems to manage it with such ease. Not even a tiny hint of a clue! Besides Bangalore, I'm pretty much done here. I'm at the same place I was a little while ago and the only thing I recognize is confusion. And I cannot work with confusion. My mind is so cluttered, my day is a mess, I cant even wake up and feel good about it. My cute little tragedy. Fun-sized you could call it!

Anyway, GRE was good! Math was decent! I knew complete vocab of whatsoever they decided to ask! Life seemed just like I wanted it to be. But then again, who am I kidding.... GRE was a joke! Math was decent! Vocab was great! Verbal was 380-480!

After GRE was the best time I've ever spent in B'lore. >> Notice how I so conveniently skip forward the tragic part I've but beating myself up over for the last few days yet it's worse when it's in writing yeah, so fast forwarding, >> ! As far as i reckon, all my B'lore trips have been way better than I expect them to be! My B'lore trips in all it's entirety have been absolutely mind-blowing... And I only use this term very very literally! ;)

I don't recall whether I blogged about Bangalore before :S it has always been my favorite vacation! I always meet someone I don't know there... And that's the crazy part about it... There are soooooooooooo many people I don't know there and yet so many for that very amount of unknown people, exactly that many people I will always remember. Who would've thought? ;)

The informality. The lack of casual stuff. The sudden unexpected turn of events. The I-could-be-lost-and-I-wouldn't-even-know-it! The malls... The crosses... The blocks... The apparent circles... Phew!

The thing about B'lore... Is belonging... YOU JUST NEVER WILL!!!!!!!

It's good! It's the best you could think of in ever... It's the whore you keep coming back for... And its crazy to fall in love with someone like that! It's the best and the worst ever! She'll give you all she's got but she'll never be just yours! She'll try everything in her power to make sure you've never seen better, but even at your happiest you cant let go of the thought that you have to let go!

You've never seen her looking so lovely as she did that night,
You've never seen her looking so gorgeous as she did that night,
You've never seen her shine so bright,
You've never seen her shine so bright. She was amazing!

You have never seen that dress she's wearing,
Or the highlights in her head that catch her eyes, you have been blind.
You've never seen so many men ask her if she wanted to dance,
They're looking for a little romance, given half a chance.
You've never seen so many people want to be there by her side,
And when she turned to you and smiled, it took your breath away.
You have never had such a feeling,
Such a feeling of complete and utter love, as you did that night.


You want to dream she is dancing with you,
There's nobody here, it's just her and you,
It's where you wanna be!
But you hardly know this beauty by your side.
You'll never forget, the way she looks tonight,
The way she looks tonight,
You never will forget, the way she looks tonight!

It's confusion, it's delusion, it's Stanford! But you cant let go!



Because dinner and a movie just wont do, ever... But sometimes starters and a trailer might be your only wish tonight.

So, are you free tonight?
Please, please be.
And then maybe a little later I can say,






"Are we done yet?


'Cause I'm through!"















love n luck

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

ze paparazzi

Issue or argument? How do you define the difference? To judge or not to judge? To become oblivious to it all...


I hope I remember, I want to post once I'm back from Bangalore!








love n all-the-best-of-luck

Monday, October 3, 2011

ze 14

As credit to my last post...


To think, 14 is all the mistakes, all the accomplishments! Everything I've got right this year! Everything that will be irreparable! For love, with the hope of luck!!! It's 14!

Now would I want to write 14 things about 14?
Would I curtail it to 4 good, and 1 bad, for what it's worth?
Would numerology define it?

Maybe I'll settle with, why should two digits signify any thing?






love n luck

Sunday, October 2, 2011

ze things that will never be

The things that will never be... AGAIN..

The things that will never be. Wishful thinking. Hope. An excuse to live life yet another day. To wake up today and realize, world peace exists, you can teleport, the person asleep next to you will always have the same affection and love for you and you'd never have a disagreement ever, your on vacation-with absolutely nothing to think about-not even pondering the mysteries of the universe, you never have to slam the door again, you never have to give up in the middle of a text message conversation and say let time do it's thing.

No. There are no lyrics for every mood. There is no song for every situation. Lets rephrase. There shouldn't be! People may self introspect, melody induced, time and time again, but do they ever learn to live with themselves? Do they ever master the art of not saying, "I wish I...!"

Today I might wish I knew 6 years ago as much as I know now. Though, almost all of what I know now, I can proudly credit to experience. A few things I can credit to other peoples experience, though does that certify me to still say that my word on the subject should be most trusted. An then again, if I did learn all of this then, what about saturation? Understanding and the ability to comprehend? Psychology?

Time is an illusion. Time is a dimension. Time is a frame, time is a plane. Planes do not possess the attribute of width, though they can extend, without limit, in length and breadth. Any point in a plane can be defined by a co-ordinate. This is relative to the axes of the plane. A single point on one plane, can also be a point on an infinite number of planes. Please tell me again, what is time?





Whoever thought, there might be a longer list than that of the things I'll never say...





Whoever thought, there might be a post on 'ze things that will never be' and not one line in that post would begin to describe any of my aspirations of what I would want, to be!











love and luck


Ps. Can we say for sure, that in the entire existence of space, the sun has seemingly traveled the same path, or even part of the same path twice?
Space is a dimension.

Friday, September 2, 2011

ze picture ive could never put in words as almost perfectly...

The lamp! The couch concept!!




The scene from the bedroom!!! Complete with color scheme!!!!
Ps. Ignore everything else but the pure color scheme and the view! The I-never-want-to-leave-this-room-ever view. The one that makes you feel just how you need to feel when you need to feel like that. The one that cures, and calms, and capriciously keeps you entertained while feeling like you own the world. It's the grey in life!




The perfect living room!!!!! And just the right bed for the previous bedroom!!!!!!




And a guest bedroom, just for the heck of it... I'll update with the balcony when I find the one I can so beautifully picture in my head... For temporary reference and just a vague idea, Pretty Woman








For the best there can be...

love n luck


Wednesday, August 31, 2011

ze lack of milk

Hello world,

Hope you're listening... Forgive me if I'm young or speaking out of turn but there's someone I've been missing. I think that they can be the better half of me... They're not in the wrong place but they are trying to make it right... So i say to you, COME HOME, cause I've been waiting for you for too long... It's about time...


Love n luck

Thursday, May 26, 2011

ze superbity

http://nedhardy.com/2011/03/10/34-cleverly-designed-inventions/




love n luck

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

ze old

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house, that don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while even though goin on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again I pretend I'm OK but that's not what gets me

What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doing it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder gettin up, gettin dressed, living with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart that I left unspoken

What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while even though goin on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again I pretend I'm OK but that's not what gets me







funny ain't it? always...





love n luck

Sunday, May 8, 2011

ze inbox

You might want to wonder how agitating that reply might be.. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .



love n luck

ze inbox

You might want to wonder how agitating that reply might be.. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .



love n luck

Saturday, May 7, 2011

ze finality

i know you love all three of us the same,
i also know you like him more than us!




love n luck

ze inbox

You might want to wonder how agitating that reply might be.. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .



love n luck

Friday, May 6, 2011

ze bassist

its disappointing loving someone who's going to keep letting you down n its jus sad when they think your d one screwing around, til u actually do!


love n luck

Saturday, April 30, 2011

ze 123

i am letting mum and dad down like it's the easiest thing in the world... i have shortage of attendance in one subject and so i have to stay for two months here in the summer when they would prefer having me at home and i have to redo the entire subject all over again. and it costs like 7 grand!!!!!! i have been staying out a couple of times from the hostel which also i am not supposed to be doing really. mum and dad have pretty much been giving me everything i really need and i haven't been doing much to return the favor or even minutely appreciate it. i even missed final lab exam and i have no clue what i can or am supposed to do about it but its a very very very big issue, it is the finals after all... and to top it of, as much as i would like to not keep messing up over and over and over again i somehow seem to be getting really good at it. i have never failed so miserably at anything before, and i cant even seem to get remotely on track. this is not even bad, its beyond awful... i dont submit assignments at all sometimes and the ones i do give in are late... the entire point of me being here seems pretty lost if studying is not what i am doing. and i am doing nothing else either. probably just sleep and randomly aimlessly roaming about the place.. and the lab exam i didn't give.. i am amazing at that subject, or at least i think so. i don't know what to do. i don't think anyone does. i might randomly know what the right thing to do might be but i have no clue how to do it and i keep getting farther away from it than i could possibly get to it...

tell mum i love her ok?




love n luck

Thursday, April 7, 2011

ze day before tomorrow

Hullo,

Its been a while.. Thank you for the prayers and thoughts... And when I say it's been a while, I barely even realized it's been 5 years, now that you mention it.. I think I remember the last birthday you spent with us and the farewell when you were quite upset to be leaving. But I presume, you don't think it's all that bad anymore and you probably actually like it there!
Well, I like it here too, but I don't exactly think I could say all is well with me. Been doing pretty horribly at college and barely even been going to class, and further, it doesn't seem to bother me so much, so then the situation is being taken even further lightly. No inspiration, motivation, determination, energy... At the moment, 4 years to study a course seems like its not worth completing in one sitting. Let's see how it goes and turn of events if any. Kind of a sad way to start a new year in a way but cant guarantee anything now can we so my birthday wish shall be one which cannot fail - I'll hope something works out, it always does, just how long it takes to get there is the question.


Love n luck

Sunday, January 2, 2011

ze inception

It all takes work... So you either do the work or you get out!!


We are not looking for the meaning of life... We are searching for the feeling of life!





love n luck

Saturday, January 1, 2011

ze end at the beginning

You held my hand and then you slipped away
And I may never see your face again
So tell me how do to fill the emptiness inside
Without love, what is life?

And anyone who knew us both can see
We always were the better part of me
I never wanted to be this free
All this pain, does it go away?

Then every time I turn around
And you're nowhere to be found
I know I got a long, long way to go
Before I can say goodbye to you
Oh, I got a long, long way I know
Before I can say goodbye to all I ever knew
To you, to you

From memory, there is no hiding place
In every crowd there's always someone with your face
Everywhere, trying not to care

Then every time I turn around
And you're nowhere to be found
I know I got a long, long way to go
Before I can say goodbye to you
Oh, I got a long, long way I know
Before I can say goodbye to all I ever knew

To you, I wish you everythin'
And all the best that life can bring
I only hope you think of me sometimes, oh
And even though I feel the pain
I know that I will love again
The time will come, oh, and I'll move on

I got a long, long way to go
Before I can say goodbye to you
Oh, I got a long, long way to go, got a long way I know
Before I can say goodbye, before I say goodbye
To all I ever knew, to all I ever knew
I got a long, I got a long, long way to go, long way to go
Before I can say, before I say, goodbye to you
Say goodbye, say goodbye
Oh, I got a long, long way I know
Before I can say goodbye to all I ever knew
Girl, I wish you the best I know, oh and all of the rest, to you
I got a long, long way to go
Before I can say goodbye to you




bye bye bye












love n luck