It' been a year now!
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Thursday, January 10, 2013
Saturday, January 5, 2013
ze receptors
When I was a lot younger, I'd practice holding my breath and lying very still. I'd make sure I'd try my best to ensure that my eyes didn't flutter and that my chest didn't rise and fall. Perfectly still. I did this because of two reasons: In case I was ever attacked by a wild animal I could fake being dead and if I ever became an actress I presumed it would be a required skill for all the dead scenes I'd have to play in movies.
It's crazy how somethings come back to you all of a sudden after decades like as though it was just yesterday. And moreover its all pristine clear and graphic. But I never seem to remember happy moments as such, or embarrassing ones, it's just the normal ones and the sad ones! And I'm sure those are the ones that make me me! Those are the ones that form the key synapses. And in a way, I could be a completely different person if I just shifted those by a little, rearranged them a bit but then how can we define the character of a person if it's all electrical circuits and chemistry?
I strongly believe in 'dependence of thought'. That all our actions are governed by our brain. But then why do I judge people? Why can I not accept decisions and not hold their drawbacks against them? True, dependence of thought on my part too but then the question arises - Can we really hope for a better society? Can we mold temperaments and improve belief systems? Can we play a role in overcoming ignorance? Or is our last resort Prozac and Zoloft and Marlboro and THC and LSD?
love n luck
It's crazy how somethings come back to you all of a sudden after decades like as though it was just yesterday. And moreover its all pristine clear and graphic. But I never seem to remember happy moments as such, or embarrassing ones, it's just the normal ones and the sad ones! And I'm sure those are the ones that make me me! Those are the ones that form the key synapses. And in a way, I could be a completely different person if I just shifted those by a little, rearranged them a bit but then how can we define the character of a person if it's all electrical circuits and chemistry?
I strongly believe in 'dependence of thought'. That all our actions are governed by our brain. But then why do I judge people? Why can I not accept decisions and not hold their drawbacks against them? True, dependence of thought on my part too but then the question arises - Can we really hope for a better society? Can we mold temperaments and improve belief systems? Can we play a role in overcoming ignorance? Or is our last resort Prozac and Zoloft and Marlboro and THC and LSD?
love n luck
Thursday, January 3, 2013
ze nouveau
So maybe I have a resolution after all. And it may be a little late for this one because it's actually stuff you ought to learn in school but I just realized that I pretty much spent the whole of my last year bent up on this concept. I need to stop fighting. I need to quit rebelling against good things happening to me and I need to simply except them. They are good things happening to me after all, how hard can they be!
I need to stop the idea of myself not living up to me. It's not like I have standards but I do have a distinct way of going about a thing or two and most often than not I can't compromise. It's a good thing when it comes to dealing with other people, but since it's most often than not just me, it's about time I got over it.
I need to quit arguing with my thoughts. The whole idea of acceptance once again!
Basically, the concept is to stop selling myself short. It's to have more confidence in what I'm worth. It's to not give a dam about anti-social elements!
It's to love my life and not fight against every extra day I have to live.... May be, it's an incentive to stick through the war even though we may have just lost the battle!
love n luck
I need to stop the idea of myself not living up to me. It's not like I have standards but I do have a distinct way of going about a thing or two and most often than not I can't compromise. It's a good thing when it comes to dealing with other people, but since it's most often than not just me, it's about time I got over it.
I need to quit arguing with my thoughts. The whole idea of acceptance once again!
Basically, the concept is to stop selling myself short. It's to have more confidence in what I'm worth. It's to not give a dam about anti-social elements!
It's to love my life and not fight against every extra day I have to live.... May be, it's an incentive to stick through the war even though we may have just lost the battle!
love n luck
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