ze diet rant

I'm scared! I can take care of people. Hell yeah I can teach them a lot! It's me that is the problem. Well isn't it always. The only reason someone might get bored is because they just can't stand their own company! I'm never bored. I may always be busy and occupied, but that's not an excuse. And it's not to the extent of solitary confinement madness either. I'm scared. I can't take care of me...

As a kid, I never felt hungry. Furthermore, I thought meals were a waste of time. I'd drag them on pointlessly and each one would last no less than three hours at a stretch. On the bad day, I'd fall asleep with food still in my mouth... But that's just it, a day I have alone is equivalent to a few more days I'd add to my anorexic exhibitions! And then the gastric acidity plight that befalls thereafter and then I'm starving for a few more hours. I actually get up occasionally to get myself a scrambled egg or potato chips or a bar of chocolate but the health conscious me that I am when I'm not alone is not very happy.

And so I'm scared. I'm soon going to be in a country with a higher currency exchange equivalent and who said I need more reasons to starve. So I need to get working on this and soon... ....




love n luck

Ps. Yay, I'm hungry now! Sorry I left this post hanging...

ze end of jan

I finally got my joining date and now it seems like I have a lot of time on my hands. For a bit there I was a little worried that things may not be scheduled to go as planned, so much to do, so little time, but now it feels relaxed. Like everything shall fall in to place! I still feel broke and I sure feel burdened with debt already but it feels alright. I feel alright. I guess it works out, so far it always has... ... ...



love n luck